If you're being serious then you should consider talking to someone about it. If not to anyone outside, then there are plenty of people on here, myself included, that are more than available.
i am actually really serious...
s'tu veux parler à un fr j'suis là
hey man, i'm always up for a talk if something's wrong, feel free to add me @ https://steamcommunity.com/id/axidoaaa/
always happy to help out :)!
i really appreciate you guys caring about me.. c,:
thank you all, it really means a lot to me <3