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waking up to realize nothing happened, you didn’t actually grow and all the shit you get plagued about or anxious in being remedied in your head just slowly drifting away cause you’re off to wake up and it never fucking happened just fucked me so hard

maybe if you kill yourself that will solve your problems

That’s why like places like this breed so much anger. Most people just fuck around, that’s neb sure but you’ve still got the clung autist like me that don’t wanna think about their present issues and get absorbed into roleplay for a bit, and when things go awry they’re really mad. Not to excuse me or myself, the post wasn’t about roleplay in the first place but it’s a notable escapist hobby.

yeah thanks

Genuinely true, honestly. I used to be the same when I relied on Neb to escape the shit that was bothering me and it wasn't going the way I wanted it to/I was stuck under drama. I felt like shit and I lashed out far beyond the forums.

When the place you escape to doesn't quite align with what you want anymore, you're gonna get upset.

you're welcome pilotbland come to me for advice anytime

so is that a yay or nay on the suicide

usually I’d joke around but I’m not in a good mood for it dude

considering what I wrote yeah

even worse when you dream about how you're a millionare n shit and when you wake up all you have is 400 bottle caps in ss13 fallout rp