heartbreak
anguish
sadness
depression
all things that i have felt since the removal
the last words that were said hit me like a bomb
Poopship McGee: Some ppl say I should keep away from you, I think they are jealous of what we have
black n yellow black n yellow: ill make the choice for you
my love
washed away like glass on the sea shore
what do i do now?
what do i even know now?
what is love? where is there left to go but off a bridge and into the ocean
but wait, there are not ocean bridges
i think to my self about why i keep going on
i can no longer roleplay with the pain i must force myself through to get up every morning know this pain
i could cut, but im not a pussy
im confused about my sexual orientation
do I convert or do i stay cis white male?
probably for the best to stay cis white male
but what do i know, what do i love?
it's all broken, shattered to a million peaces, my heart
my mind quakes and i feel a headache like a native guy beating on my skull with a stick
i don't know what this world means anymore
u trust someone with your heart and they take it and throw it away
but was it a waste or was it just an understanding that it was never meant to be?
maybe it was because she already knew that i would be better off alone
perhaps i must recover and come back to the world a better man, a man who can support a woman like her with money, cars and drugs
or perhaps i need to take a long walk, smoke an cigarette and start life a new
who really knows, all i know is love stinks
it digs deep into your heart and gives u a feeling in your gut that you cannot forget
its a magical feeling that brings you up when you're feeling down
i never felt this way before on the internet but now, i know why these relations never work
perhaps...
it's better this way.................
