Ace of Spades
Proton
- Joined
- Apr 26, 2016
- Messages
- 250
- Nebulae
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Hey, guys. Hasn't changed very much since I've left it seems. Anyways I want to make a Public Apology. I'll be honest. It was a very stupid idea just to use a concept another person made. I thought I'd have a chance to meet some new friendly people for once. Although I did! But at the same time, I have something still stuck down here deep somewhere in my heart. Doing my own whole project just didn't feel right. It doesn't make sense trying to build something of my own when another project here expands large. I feel vert stupid I'll admit. All I ask is that I can have your forgiveness.
I want to help Nebulous all I can. But it just feels so awkward now trying to get involved with this thing since pretty much everybody hates me. We've had some great history past the years at LP. Ever since my first mistake I've broken down thinking about myself and what I do here. I spent two years trying to build myself back up but it just never felt complete in my eyes. I see it as getting one faction now is good enough.
But honestly, I don't want to fake myself saying I'm changing. Because I'm going to say something honest here. Blackquill, when I said I changed back then it was dumb. I wasn't acting myself. I was being somebody else. I just wanted to become something better and try to get involved with others. I just want to be myself now. I need, to be Honest. I just want to stick to roleplaying. Trying to be funny on the forums feels so dumb now. Trying to make a funny meme is also stupid. Sure, it's impossible to be Human without joking around sometime. Although, I need to get more serious.
Alex, I backstabbed you. I should've listened to you. Instead, I thought bullshit and backstabbed you. That's why I feel broken down. I backstabbed my own friend. I'm done making up stupid Drama. I understand if you don't forgive me. That's why I'll tell you that I'm done with stupid things. I'm going to focus on getting my shit together and improve from on there. I respect that nobody trusts me anymore. To end the trouble of getting this off my heart I'm going to donate $150.00. If It was USD I would've done $200.00. I don't want to pay you to forgive me. I just want to let myself know I've done the right thing. I feel as if this is the correct choice. I'm sorry.
I want to help Nebulous all I can. But it just feels so awkward now trying to get involved with this thing since pretty much everybody hates me. We've had some great history past the years at LP. Ever since my first mistake I've broken down thinking about myself and what I do here. I spent two years trying to build myself back up but it just never felt complete in my eyes. I see it as getting one faction now is good enough.
But honestly, I don't want to fake myself saying I'm changing. Because I'm going to say something honest here. Blackquill, when I said I changed back then it was dumb. I wasn't acting myself. I was being somebody else. I just wanted to become something better and try to get involved with others. I just want to be myself now. I need, to be Honest. I just want to stick to roleplaying. Trying to be funny on the forums feels so dumb now. Trying to make a funny meme is also stupid. Sure, it's impossible to be Human without joking around sometime. Although, I need to get more serious.
Alex, I backstabbed you. I should've listened to you. Instead, I thought bullshit and backstabbed you. That's why I feel broken down. I backstabbed my own friend. I'm done making up stupid Drama. I understand if you don't forgive me. That's why I'll tell you that I'm done with stupid things. I'm going to focus on getting my shit together and improve from on there. I respect that nobody trusts me anymore. To end the trouble of getting this off my heart I'm going to donate $150.00. If It was USD I would've done $200.00. I don't want to pay you to forgive me. I just want to let myself know I've done the right thing. I feel as if this is the correct choice. I'm sorry.
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