MaelRadecs
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I've decided to take my leave from the community and I'd like to begin with that this isn't a post to get pity or anything from any of you.
If you've known me for awhile you're well aware of my frequent usage of the teamspeak server. I tend to sit in there for a good majority of my time on server or even off server playing other games.
But I've been horrible.
Possibly to you, possibly to your friends, but considering we're all a community this apology needs to be addressed to the community.
I've been so caught up in myself and my words over these past few months that I've been actively shittalking people behind their back, in a joking manner (basically passing it off as banter), without anyway for them to respond to me, because they weren't present or aware of me doing it. Sometimes I was so unaware of my words or what I was saying that I was doing this without even remembering that I'm doing it. Yeah, it's that bad.
I have an issue with this, it's not how I used to act ever and whatever has happened, I attribute to me genuinely being a fucking douchebag. I know others shit talk, I know others are rude and we bounce off that in chat, but it didn't make it excusable for me to do it. Not once, not ever.
It's even worse because when other people got joked about, I'd stand up for them and then not five minutes later, there I am joking about someone else who I hardly even know beyond a video game.
I want to believe I can be better than this, I do believe I can improve myself, and ultimately it starts by moving past these mistakes and admitting my wrongs to all of you. I know this post won't fix things, but if I didn't do this, I'd forever be stuck at step one.
If I've wronged you throughout my time here or you feel that way about me, I'd like to personally apologize to you.
Know that you all are way beyond my words if I ever insulted you or shit talked you. You deserve so much better than a mere apology, and as ingenuine as that can seem coming from me, I mean it to myself and I hope I can show you that I mean it to you as well someday.
Thanks for everything, guys.
If you've known me for awhile you're well aware of my frequent usage of the teamspeak server. I tend to sit in there for a good majority of my time on server or even off server playing other games.
But I've been horrible.
Possibly to you, possibly to your friends, but considering we're all a community this apology needs to be addressed to the community.
I've been so caught up in myself and my words over these past few months that I've been actively shittalking people behind their back, in a joking manner (basically passing it off as banter), without anyway for them to respond to me, because they weren't present or aware of me doing it. Sometimes I was so unaware of my words or what I was saying that I was doing this without even remembering that I'm doing it. Yeah, it's that bad.
I have an issue with this, it's not how I used to act ever and whatever has happened, I attribute to me genuinely being a fucking douchebag. I know others shit talk, I know others are rude and we bounce off that in chat, but it didn't make it excusable for me to do it. Not once, not ever.
It's even worse because when other people got joked about, I'd stand up for them and then not five minutes later, there I am joking about someone else who I hardly even know beyond a video game.
I want to believe I can be better than this, I do believe I can improve myself, and ultimately it starts by moving past these mistakes and admitting my wrongs to all of you. I know this post won't fix things, but if I didn't do this, I'd forever be stuck at step one.
If I've wronged you throughout my time here or you feel that way about me, I'd like to personally apologize to you.
Know that you all are way beyond my words if I ever insulted you or shit talked you. You deserve so much better than a mere apology, and as ingenuine as that can seem coming from me, I mean it to myself and I hope I can show you that I mean it to you as well someday.
Thanks for everything, guys.
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