Serious Medical/Mental Illness. Or a general well being thread

[FreeSpy]

meh

dying of heatwave can have some nasty effects honestly

i can barely do anything and im soon gonna resort to sleeping on the cold floor

im being reminded of failures like a day after i forget them too which doesnt bother me a lot, or so i think

i can barely hold conversations now so idrk anymore

just a mediocre week really

 

[Warwick]

Stressed as fuck. Lost my job due to COVID, put all my eggs into one basket working with a guy that fucked me out of several grand, computer bricked and is costing £300 (at least) to fix; and hoping I get this management job I’ve been gunning for since failing in the final stead of a previous interview process for a huge company (450 entrants and I was in the final 4). Everything’s kicking me while I’m down, and it’s starting to hurt and make me feel really fucking useless.

glad I got to vent tho lmao

 

[Chromesthesia_]

just dropped an entire digestive biscuit into my mug of milk genuine at wits end this might be the night

 

[Trains]

got back from a weekend hiking trip

was cool, didn’t cover much ground because my friends boots quite literally fell apart so we had to get picked up

just got out the shower and realised why my feet are hurting so bad

my boots are too small and my feet are now covered in massive blisters

 

[Merlinsclaw]

I’ve been in Europe for about a month now, and it’s given me alot of time to reflect. High School is coming to an end now, and it’s time that I’m starting to think about university.

I scored a 28 (superscored 29) on my ACT. I’ll probably have a superscored 32 by September if I really study. Realistically, I could go anywhere in Kentucky for uni at a reasonable price.

Problem is, I really don’t want to. Both my mother and uncle went to college in Kentucky and never finished. They ended up trapped in a small, rural town. I don’t wanna get trapped.

I’ve wanted to go to school in Washington D.C for a while. I suspect I could make it into AU there or possibly Georgetown University, which is easily top 25 schools in the country if I went tryhard.

Yet even that seems iffy after this trip. I want to get out of America, to stay far away, and to try and start a new life that isn’t in a rural town 3 hours away from the nearest big city. I’d love to come to college in Europe.

I’ve considered going to GT/AU and going abroad, but it’s expensive. Meanwhile this foreboding deadline of getting my ACT score up, applying for college, and knowing that I graduate soon (so I should make the most of my social life) all comes crashing in.

It’s stressful. I just don’t want to end up stuck in Kentucky, and I want to live in Europe.

<3

 

[Ond]

I’ve been in Europe for about a month now, and it’s given me alot of time to reflect. High School is coming to an end now, and it’s time that I’m starting to think about university.

I scored a 28 (superscored 29) on my ACT. I’ll probably have a superscored 32 by September if I really study. Realistically, I could go anywhere in Kentucky for uni at a reasonable price.

Problem is, I really don’t want to. Both my mother and uncle went to college in Kentucky and never finished. They ended up trapped in a small, rural town. I don’t wanna get trapped.

I’ve wanted to go to school in Washington D.C for a while. I suspect I could make it into AU there or possibly Georgetown University, which is easily top 25 schools in the country if I went tryhard.

Yet even that seems iffy after this trip. I want to get out of America, to stay far away, and to try and start a new life that isn’t in a rural town 3 hours away from the nearest big city. I’d love to come to college in Europe.

I’ve considered going to GT/AU and going abroad, but it’s expensive. Meanwhile this foreboding deadline of getting my ACT score up, applying for college, and knowing that I graduate soon (so I should make the most of my social life) all comes crashing in.

It’s stressful. I just don’t want to end up stuck in Kentucky, and I want to live in Europe.

<3

If you want to move to Europe I'd advise seeking jobs in IT as Western Europe is starting to build many centers for larger companies that will require lots of workers

If it interests you at all, of course.

If you want to see the world without having to pay for it, then there is a very obvious job for it, where they will pay for your IT supporter/whatever it is you're doing and also give you free college

 

[Northgate]

tired but I love working

past few days have been quite stressful but extremely interesting and on god I love work

i want to work more but I have to sleep sadly

 

[Inaudible™]

tired but I love working

past few days have been quite stressful but extremely interesting and on god I love work

i want to work more but I have to sleep sadly

Grindset

 

[Andrew]

I’ve been in Europe for about a month now, and it’s given me alot of time to reflect. High School is coming to an end now, and it’s time that I’m starting to think about university.

I scored a 28 (superscored 29) on my ACT. I’ll probably have a superscored 32 by September if I really study. Realistically, I could go anywhere in Kentucky for uni at a reasonable price.

Problem is, I really don’t want to. Both my mother and uncle went to college in Kentucky and never finished. They ended up trapped in a small, rural town. I don’t wanna get trapped.

I’ve wanted to go to school in Washington D.C for a while. I suspect I could make it into AU there or possibly Georgetown University, which is easily top 25 schools in the country if I went tryhard.

Yet even that seems iffy after this trip. I want to get out of America, to stay far away, and to try and start a new life that isn’t in a rural town 3 hours away from the nearest big city. I’d love to come to college in Europe.

I’ve considered going to GT/AU and going abroad, but it’s expensive. Meanwhile this foreboding deadline of getting my ACT score up, applying for college, and knowing that I graduate soon (so I should make the most of my social life) all comes crashing in.

It’s stressful. I just don’t want to end up stuck in Kentucky, and I want to live in Europe.

<3

Don't always have to go to college.
Still can - just doesn't have to be immediately out if high school. Can wait five, ten, twenty years.
With good grades, you can even start in a community college, get some good points after a year or two, and transfer to a more respectable college.
Skips the debt they want to trap you in for life and gets you the same certifications people like to see.
Not to mention, you can go anywhere in life without college and a trade.
Mechanic, carpentry, IT is always hot. All three can get you incredibly far in life during this massive shortage of tradesmen. People are dying for them right now.
Since you're in America, there's even more options, too.

 

[Dicknose]

Feel sick but other than that I’m vibing. Want to start getting back out there to get my social skills back

 

[OneClassyBanana]

Been grappling with a fixation on death lately. Not an easy thing to shake. It bleeds into almost everything I do, sitting at the back of my mind every day. To put it bluntly, it’s the most miserable I’ve been in a very long time.

I’ve been trying to get back on my meds to help, but it’s an uphill climb. Constantly fearing for the future. Dreading it. Resenting the past. And it’s Hellish. But I also find myself coming back to it in my art. It’s the only thing that seems to come forward from me creatively when I get the drive to write lyrics. It’s venomous and I hate it for its persistence in being the solitary muse I can readily call upon and immerse myself in.

Care for yourselves and mind your minds, folks. Don’t get stuck in this purgatorial thought like myself.

 

[Sil]

Been grappling with a fixation on death lately. Not an easy thing to shake. It bleeds into almost everything I do, sitting at the back of my mind every day. To put it bluntly, it’s the most miserable I’ve been in a very long time.

I’ve been trying to get back on my meds to help, but it’s an uphill climb. Constantly fearing for the future. Dreading it. Resenting the past. And it’s Hellish. But I also find myself coming back to it in my art. It’s the only thing that seems to come forward from me creatively when I get the drive to write lyrics. It’s venomous and I hate it for its persistence in being the solitary muse I can readily call upon and immerse myself in.

Care for yourselves and mind your minds, folks. Don’t get stuck in this purgatorial thought like myself.

You'll overcome this mountain soon.

Don't lose hope, my man.

And don't forget, death is the end of a journey. It's where the road leads, and it's the final destination for us all. So don't be afraid to stop and smell the flowers, drift off the beaten path and explore what life has to offer. Life is the journey, and it's a whole lot longer than the end. After all, if all you're looking at is the end, you'll miss all the great stuff that this road has to offer.

 

[jerry]

havent slept in 4 days, dad's on the verge of just snapping, mom's a retard who still thinks i haven't passed the age of 5, haven't been able to see my friends since may, i've become paranoid over nothing, can't sleep ever, feel miserable everyday, fainted while walking out on the lawn for 3 hours today, no food in the house, no money for me to actually eat during the day and morning.

need to shave, everytime i try sleeping i end up with paralysis or a nightmare, can't go into a store without looking like a school shooter, members of my scout troop started distancing themselves from me specifically for no reason. i look like a slightly bigger version of slenderman with long as shit hair and a crippling social life. parent's are on the verge of disowning me. kidney disease signs are showing at an extremely young age, and thats bad considering half of my family has kidney disease. mom is also forcing me to go to trade school when i turn 16 instead of me doing what i want to do when i turn 18 because "i deem fit to be the new CEO to her A/C company when she retires!!!!!!" HOHOHOHO!

would you like to know why? because i'm the most "probable to violent acts" in this house, which makes zero sense because if i talk about my dad even badly here, you know i mention he throws tables at the walls when he gets angry at fucking world of warships.

fortunately all is not lost because i'm still using the last remaning medication i have to keep my mentally stable, and i've been working out more, eating healthier, but my emotional, social, and mental life has wound up in the shithouse.

when the fuck can i just take a bike ride and buy some boomer juice y'know what i mean?

 

[Raiden]

i got spiked last night, we vibin at york hospital

 

[Baghut]

Meds help but therapy is wayyy better. Also just want to state that meds are okay but under any circumstance Never ever take benzos or benzodiazepines. They are dreadful. Ive been taking clonazepam for a year or more. Quit it 6 months ago. Best decision ive ever made but the withdrawal is horrible.
[doublepost=1628080344][/doublepost]I just want access to a good therapist which i could trust n shit. I’m very erratic sometimes

 

[Mute]

hi it’s me I don’t plan to stick around or return (forums or otherwise) but I just needed to come here to talk for a bit just cause there’s nowhere else I can really turn so its time to overshare as is my expertise

haven’t been doing to well mentally, thought staffing and the server and community was the root cause of it, quitting did help a bit but not as much as I hoped it would, tried getting into new hobbies like drawing to no avail

past year or two has completely isolated me from everyone and everything, struggled with depression and anxiety even before covid but its just gotten worse, can’t really go out of my house without feeling like shit and that everyones watching and judging me

not something ive ever divulged with anyone but ive had suicidal thoughts for a long time (from a disturbingly young age, 10-11 or so), they stopped for a while but have cropped up again these past few months, especially a lot more the month ive been away, but its been getting better

been doing better in school than usual actually, despite that im in a bit of a crossroads in my life, unsure if i actually want to pursue the thing ive planned/go to college for (IT) cause ive been doubting if its actually something id enjoy or if its due to this grandiose idea ive developed of pay that comes with those types of jobs and the prospects of leaving my country, so thats not nice considering i have to make this life altering choice in less than 6 months

dunno, people here are in a similar age range to me and have had to go through these choices themselves so im just kinda looking for guidance and advice on it

 

[Blackquill]

hi it’s me I don’t plan to stick around or return (forums or otherwise) but I just needed to come here to talk for a bit just cause there’s nowhere else I can really turn so its time to overshare as is my expertise

haven’t been doing to well mentally, thought staffing and the server and community was the root cause of it, quitting did help a bit but not as much as I hoped it would, tried getting into new hobbies like drawing to no avail

past year or two has completely isolated me from everyone and everything, struggled with depression and anxiety even before covid but its just gotten worse, can’t really go out of my house without feeling like shit and that everyones watching and judging me

not something ive ever divulged with anyone but ive had suicidal thoughts for a long time (from a disturbingly young age, 10-11 or so), they stopped for a while but have cropped up again these past few months, especially a lot more the month ive been away, but its been getting better

been doing better in school than usual actually, despite that im in a bit of a crossroads in my life, unsure if i actually want to pursue the thing ive planned/go to college for (IT) cause ive been doubting if its actually something id enjoy or if its due to this grandiose idea ive developed of pay that comes with those types of jobs and the prospects of leaving my country, so thats not nice considering i have to make this life altering choice in less than 6 months

dunno, people here are in a similar age range to me and have had to go through these choices themselves so im just kinda looking for guidance and advice on it

I'm glad you see neb as a place to go when you need it :]

 

[Rabid]

been doing better in school than usual actually, despite that im in a bit of a crossroads in my life, unsure if i actually want to pursue the thing ive planned/go to college for (IT) cause ive been doubting if its actually something id enjoy or if its due to this grandiose idea ive developed of pay that comes with those types of jobs and the prospects of leaving my country, so thats not nice considering i have to make this life altering choice in less than 6 months

dunno, people here are in a similar age range to me and have had to go through these choices themselves so im just kinda looking for guidance and advice on it

I'm a bit older than you but I went through this sort of thing myself (even recently with getting Obi on such short notice actually).

I painted 938949394 reasons why doing 'x' would be a bad idea and second guessed myself even when I was desperate to find something and I realised it was because I subconsciously didn't want anything to change. I was 'happy' that my life was so predictable even if it was boring and unhealthy for me. I've had to take the breath and leap in feet-first to get over that hurdle a few times in my life even if it threw me way out of my element.

Take it with a grain of salt of course but education is never a bad thing, to me, neither is breaking through your own worries.

 

[Mute]

I'm glad you see neb as a place to go when you need it :]

if you ignore the politics that come with the servers itself it is genuinely the nicest and most welcoming communities ive interacted with

 

[deathwolf]

my girlfriend has had depression since she was seven and has constant suicidal thoughts but she refuses to take medication because her mum died from mixing anti depressents and alcohol which eventually gave her jaundice. I don't know how I can help her and sometimes i feel like I'm just slowly losing her