now looking back at it, roleplay and gaming overall, in steam and such which i have been into since i had internet in my pc was a grey ground for me
on one side, i do spend much time in front of the screen which is bad for my health, and i do create things that most people may not even care, get involved in stuff that will have no consequences. but now, when i look at it, after finding the balance between things, it is really fine.
look at it like that, people who call you/me/us losers do also game/write/read/inserthobby. we are just a bunch that gathered here for some good time, jokes, banter and to have quality time in our own perspectives. i mean, if i spent the time i spent roleplaying on going out, i would probably be broke as fuck now. i mean, when there is a storm outside, or simply when i come home after 15-16 hours, what is wrong with me roleplaying or spending that free section of time with the act called 'roleplay'? i personally see HL2RP as a group writing, i adored writing and reading since i learnt to how to do them. after i come home after a long day at school, or after grabbing a few drinks with friends, i fail to see what is wrong with spending some time to play as a character in some story. Just as
@Zak said, we just do not need to take it too seriously, and manage to see it as what it is, a hobby that you do with people that shares the same interests with you.
as for myself, roleplay got around two thousand hours of my life, that i will never have back. but, it also gives me satisfaction to create characters, see their ends, develop them accordingly, assist others to do so, and those days mainly, to help others doing such and enhance their experience. one thing i noticed is my english improved greatly (it is not perfect as of now, but it is far better for someone of my age and in my country) which is fine for me, i get to practice english in server as writing, and i can practice and hone my speaking when i go on ts/discord/skype with the folks i met here, i do not see what is wrong here. you get to interact and observe, maybe make friends with a lot of different people over here except from your local friends circle, enjoy and let out some stress here. the one thing that causes me to not regret those one thousand and a half hours is it greatly reinforces my dream of studying translation studies, and studying foreign languages.
so yeah, being a 'loser' depends on your definition of loser, roleplay is not a factor that counts in it imo. being a loser is more about personality, if you feel like a loser at least tell yourself that you do not shank people for some extra crack that you will inject into yourself under a bridge for a few hours of disassociation from reality.
i wrote too much :((((((((