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fuck i really don't know how to describe this it's fucking with me and i don't know how to talk about it without sounding like some weirdoFalling into the memes
all the stuff for a- this and a- that, like you said
you could just be a few things
for instance i don't see myself in a marriage at all anytime soon nor have i ever but i've learned by now to never write that out
- young and confused
- unable to connect with anyone you've met yet
- other
good example is someone i know who outright changed who they were from the core for someone they loved and clicked with and was on the verge of having kids... before their relationship simply didn't turn out right, and now they're basically on reset now getting back up. never fell, never hit that point of back to the ground tipping over, just sort of 'well, that happened' and now they're back to doing the things they used to do all the time but put a stop to for the sake of their relationship
life has a way of making you rewrite stuff to make a change for someone else, in your case it just sounds like you haven't met anyone yet
like literally someone who never saw themselves as having kids was on the verge of being a dad, wanting to be a dad, wanting to be the best dad they could be
>inb4 someone says you have autism
i feel love, i connect with people, it's hard to describe but it feels like the same type of "love", i've had people i find attractive approach me, but it fucking short-circuits my brain every time and i just can't do anything with it because its hard to reciprocate
it's not really about not "seeing myself" in a relationship, i can't describe it but it feels off, i've had the opportunity to do so but i'd much rather shit stay the same, i don't have any desire to date anyone, or marry anyone (and when people complain about not being in a relationship it always fucked with me cause i just never saw it as a big deal), i still want to enjoy similar shit with friends/family. I don't know I can't understand the obsession with it, its never interested me in any sort of media or in real life, it mostly bores me when it happens in games or movies and if i have the option to i just ignore/skip it if it isnt relevant
maybe i'll change, maybe i am confused, who knows